Life in General

I am new to this blog, I have a couple or so on my Myspace page, but I have never posted blogs before. I do however right in a Journal, ( I don't call it a diary, I am not 8 years old), my journal is my vent. I have a hard time, believe it or not sometimes telling people my deepest darkest emotions and how I truly feel. So my Journal gets that. I am happily married and have been for almost 2 years. I have a 3 year old, Avery, that I would not trade the world for. He has been my rock at times, my joy, my laughter, and my youth. I have been divorced for 2 years now. It's funny even though things happened the way they did I would go back in time, knowing what I know now and marry him all over again, go through all the things I went through, have Avery and be happy now. I had to get married and sometimes think that certain people should marry just to learn some of life's simple lessons. I am by no means an advocate for divorce, but I feel like that sometimes people cast judgement and they have no clue what may go on behind closed doors. Now let me clarify that my ex-husband is not a bad person. It takes two to make a marriage work. First we were entirely too young to marry, we were 19. I look back now and I know that, I should have listened to my mother, but Avery would never have been in my life. It took a divorce for me to see that I could make it on my own, for me to really learn to budget money. I am thankful for all of it. I truly am. Now I can have a successful marriage. I can manage money. I am the wife that I am partly due to the previous marriage and divorce that I did have. I love Denton with all my heart, god has placed us together and we are perfect for each other. I grumble about picking up copenhagen cans laying everywhere and he sings me a song to make me laugh. He can't believe sometimes that I do say most everything that is on my mind. He laughs at me most of the time because I could be crazy who knows. I believe everything has a place, so get off your fanny and put it back when you are finished. I could seriously be a neat freak if I wanted, but that takes entirely to much time that I just don't want to take away from Avery or Denton. I love doing things as a family. Avery loves to play outside and be any superhero he can think of...seriously he has an imagination. But anyway, marriage isn't easy, but life isn't either. Marriage takes God first and foremost, then it takes two people who are ready to obey God and work together to make that marriage work. There are far too many people in the world that set out to find someone to marry and the first person who winks or giggles there way they propose and its done. I think to be truly happy with someone else you have to find yourself and establish yourself, know who you are, what you want in life. We shouldn't base who we are on someone or something, we will never be happy. I can look back now and smile at all the good times I had as a single person, and that prepared me to be happily married. Don't get me wrong we have our own little mountains we have to climb, but we are climbing them together not separately. Maybe in some future blogs I can share some of those with you. I hope that somewhere someone has gotten something from this. If not...I did.