Babies....

Goodness, I haven't done this in a few years. I will try my best to do better...we can only hope. Avery is in 1st grade and actually loves it. I enjoy listening to him read. It is simply amazing watching him change and grow and learn. Recently the subject came up of a baby brother, brought up by Avery. I quickly responded by saying that I was getting too old for babies. He, to my shock, decided that a baby would take attention from him, and I was glad that he came to that conclusion on his own. Don't get me wrong, there are days I really really want one, especially since my brother and his wife just had a sweet, sweet baby girl. It makes you wonder. I'm very on the fence with this. I wish that it was easy for me, that I could say I wanted a baby, and got that ease of getting pregnant, and then had a worry-free pregnancy. I know that the want for a baby will soon go away. Maybe its because I am getting a little older, Avery is getting a lot older, way too fast. Last week I stumbled across an organization for women who have lost babies either stillborn or through miscarriage, it is called i am the face. You can visit the website at iamthevoice.org. I signed up for a pen pal that obviously has been through something similar to what I have been through. I am actually really really excited. I don't talk about my miscarriages really openly anymore, and the more I think about it, I am worse about discussing them at all. Which is unhealthy for me and for everyone I am around. I know that in the end everything will work itself out and I am ok with that! Til next time....